what a bad day.
i got a demerit point today.
from mrs koh.
for vandalising.
and i must thank her so much.
because i feel like getting out of this school.
i hate this life.
but doreen, its not your fault.
you need not feel guilty.
dont blame yourself.
i am to blame.
i asked for it myself.
i asked for trouble.
nothing but trouble. ):

this life is biased against me.
but what can i do?
i just got led by life meaninglessly.
and some friends are just so selfish.
they point fingers.
not only that, they stare at the person.
simple.
they didnt want to get implicated.
that is the selfishness of typical singaporeans.
and when their friends are in trouble, they just didnt care or give a damn.
i truly know who.

never mind.
its all over.
talking abt the happy things would be better. (:
in class, those who ponned english enrichment recalled the incident.
though it happened yesterday.
we still joked abt it.
to think abt it, i think we are so hum ji lor. XD
hilda's sms totally shocked us.
but it made us laugh like mad.
till i had a slight stomach upset. =D
we thought hilda told teacher we ponned. maybe sean would, if they knew.
hilda smsed gen and asked.
"is doreen with u?"
(everyone shocked)
so we discussed properly, without leaving any loophole.
then we replied.
"no. why?"
"i think she took my water bottle."
(everyone burst out laughing)

after 45 mintues of discussing(i know its a long time),
we decided.
with 15 mintues ending to the course, we went back.
we saw lydia in the hostel comupter room.
so we got her along with us.
and we went as a group.

fortunately, mr lee was stupid enough to believe us.
we sat down and everything went smoothly.
the "plan" we spent 45 mintues thinking of didnt backfire.
thats good.
sighs.
i felt so guilty.
gen, tingyi, peiying and i decided to apologise sincerely.
neither did we expect...
we had to compensate.
and that is to:
read a better speech.
omg. we regretted.
if we hadnt went to him, we would not get this.
LOLS. but at least my heart was at ease.

doreen and i could not forget this lame thing.
all and everything abt this ponning thing.
we worried abt getting demerit points, our parents knowing...
but we worried for nothing. diao.

OKAYES.
today was...
depressing.
chewshian could tell.

history was quite interesting.
mr yeow just loves joking with yanjing and dale.
the cutests of the cutes.

then came geography.
went to geog room.
vandalised on the table. : 1h'06 rocks.
little did i expect something bad would turn out...
demerit point.
fuck it.
no mood.
mrs koh went personally to 1h to ask the girls who sat at the middle table to go out and see her.
straightforward, she asked,
"who vandalised 1h`06 rocks on the table?"
everyone didnt answer.
someone's/some eyes were looking at me, furtively.
i decided to admit.
"i did it."
then she asked the rest to go back.
i was to go to the office with her.
green form.
oh, so great.
i went back, feeling so down.
damn it. damn it.

english lesson. mr adrian could tell i was feeling down.
so he skipped me when asking abt the summary thing.
sadistic.

during chinese lesson, i was always bored.
always lonely.
always tired.
because i didnt have a companion.
because i couldnt get along with the people sitting near me.
i was dead tired.
i fell asleep. and woke up.
and this continued till the bell rang for the next period.

science lesson err?
went to summer concerto.
wow. slacked there when we were supposed to do science project..

end of school.
too bad i still had science remedial on.
but now i can sort of remember the formulas. yay.
should be. a little unsure still.
kampate bahs.
gotta go now.
sarang haeyo(: